'Tis the season to...be married. fa la la la la.
No seriously, it's getting warmer so all the wedding announcements are coming. and it's soo weird! Little girls I knew when they were 12 are now 18 and getting married, kidsI knew in high school are getting married, returned missionaries I met are getting married, AND married friends I know are having/had babies already! Don't get me wrong, I don't feel bitter or upset like "It should be me" *mope* pity party *mope* I just think-good for them.
I'll be turning 25 in September and I'm single. Do I ever think about having a significant other? Yes. Will it ever happen in this life? I think so! My "goal" is to get hitched at least by age 38 (but now that I've put that in writing, I probably jinxed myself). In the past (err and present) I've had little girlish daydreams of marrying certain young men. But those are just daydreams, I can't see the future.
I don't really know why I'm spilling my guts about such a subject, but with all the weddings it's been on my mind.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Monday, May 2, 2011
A New Direction and a New Found Hobby
All my life my career goal was to be a teacher; as I grew the subject of what I taught changed (music, art, kindergarten, history, the fifth grade). Then in high school I discovered drama and since then my career goal was to be a drama teacher.
But I don't want to do that anymore. I feel like I've been in school for too long. I'm tired of homework and recently, tired of not being cast in any show. Now that may sound snotty but it's what kept me going before. I could handle loads of homework because I had the enjoyment of rehearsals and performances to balance it out. But without a show, I have extra time to be bored.
SO! I have decided to go on a completely different career path. I really enjoy doing make-up, and I know with a little more training & practice I can be doing it professionally for the stage and/or movies(and tv). Don't think I'm dropping out of school completely, I've also decided that once I save up more tuition money I'll just get a general theatre degree.
And about that new hobby: during Easter weekend I went with a couple friends to Sakura Con (a convention) dedicated to anime, manga, and pretty much anything Japanese culture. We also cosplayed, and seeing all the other con-goer's cosplay and wigs I realized knowing how to do that would not only be fun but VERY helpful to my new career choice. My sewing skills aren't that good but I'm already working on it AND I bought a wig and found to my pleasure I'm pretty good at styling! And I can't wait for next years convention!
I thought I might as well add an update on my current location. As I said before I have run out of tuition money, so I'm living with my parents looking for a job, at least I was, I caught bronchitis and haven't been doing anything. But I've been taking a load of gross medicine and WILL get better soon!
But I don't want to do that anymore. I feel like I've been in school for too long. I'm tired of homework and recently, tired of not being cast in any show. Now that may sound snotty but it's what kept me going before. I could handle loads of homework because I had the enjoyment of rehearsals and performances to balance it out. But without a show, I have extra time to be bored.
SO! I have decided to go on a completely different career path. I really enjoy doing make-up, and I know with a little more training & practice I can be doing it professionally for the stage and/or movies(and tv). Don't think I'm dropping out of school completely, I've also decided that once I save up more tuition money I'll just get a general theatre degree.
And about that new hobby: during Easter weekend I went with a couple friends to Sakura Con (a convention) dedicated to anime, manga, and pretty much anything Japanese culture. We also cosplayed, and seeing all the other con-goer's cosplay and wigs I realized knowing how to do that would not only be fun but VERY helpful to my new career choice. My sewing skills aren't that good but I'm already working on it AND I bought a wig and found to my pleasure I'm pretty good at styling! And I can't wait for next years convention!
I thought I might as well add an update on my current location. As I said before I have run out of tuition money, so I'm living with my parents looking for a job, at least I was, I caught bronchitis and haven't been doing anything. But I've been taking a load of gross medicine and WILL get better soon!
Friday, November 5, 2010
This is SPARTA!...Not really its college.
And even though this is college, with all the drama I see, you'd think we were in middle school or elementary. Now I admit, I definitely don't act my age. In fact, though I am older then most of my friends, most of them are more mature then I on certain levels. And I'm okay with that; let them be grown ups with their marriages, philosophical thinkings, and such, I like being silly and entertaining. And yet, even I have a limit to immaturity. It annoys me to no end when people are childish when it comes to dealing with hurt feelings, the opposite sex, and trying to hard to be liked by being childish on purpose (if that makes sense).
I believe the most childish thing to do when dealing with hurt felings is to do nothing! I absolutly hate it when people give off the silent treament and avoid the other person in question. I too have had friends give me the silent treatment during my school days and the present and it still bothers me! If you have a problem spit it out, how am I supposed to fix the wrong or apologize if I don't know whats going on. And come on, avoiding me? Just makes social gatherings more awkward.
When it comes to the opposite sex, there are 3 types of girls. The type that goes all weird and giggly, the type that don't really care, and and the happy mediums. Until recently, I used to be the weird giggly types. I loved talking about the latest guys and who said hi to me or smiled, etc. Until recently, I was with some friends (all younger then me (but still in college)), when they started talking about boys. I caught myself mentally rolling my eyes and thinking "Oh please." I am now in the happy medium group.
Do you remember those kids back in school that would act like goof balls just to get attention? I do. And I've met some here at University and it drives me crazy. Saying stupid stuff (that isn't funny) to appear funny and likeable is annoying. Now I know I say silly stuff and it makes people laugh, some is unintentional and some is. But I'm not doing it to be popular I'm doing it because its me.
Oh college, it still has annoying people, childish drama, and homework. I wonder if these three things will go away when I become a grown up.
I believe the most childish thing to do when dealing with hurt felings is to do nothing! I absolutly hate it when people give off the silent treament and avoid the other person in question. I too have had friends give me the silent treatment during my school days and the present and it still bothers me! If you have a problem spit it out, how am I supposed to fix the wrong or apologize if I don't know whats going on. And come on, avoiding me? Just makes social gatherings more awkward.
When it comes to the opposite sex, there are 3 types of girls. The type that goes all weird and giggly, the type that don't really care, and and the happy mediums. Until recently, I used to be the weird giggly types. I loved talking about the latest guys and who said hi to me or smiled, etc. Until recently, I was with some friends (all younger then me (but still in college)), when they started talking about boys. I caught myself mentally rolling my eyes and thinking "Oh please." I am now in the happy medium group.
Do you remember those kids back in school that would act like goof balls just to get attention? I do. And I've met some here at University and it drives me crazy. Saying stupid stuff (that isn't funny) to appear funny and likeable is annoying. Now I know I say silly stuff and it makes people laugh, some is unintentional and some is. But I'm not doing it to be popular I'm doing it because its me.
Oh college, it still has annoying people, childish drama, and homework. I wonder if these three things will go away when I become a grown up.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
"It takes an idiot to do cool things. That's why it's cool."
So there is this thing called manga. It is in the form of a book commonly known as a graphic novel. I was introduced to them in 2005 by my cousins. After that I was hooked. I enjoy reading them. BUT I've made a discovery-enjoying manga makes you a big geek. Why is that? why is enjoying something thats different considered wrong? Before moving up to the University I observed very quickly that if theatre people found out someone was an anime/manga fan they were categorized as geeks and "outcasted". I like having my friends in theatre so I never said a peep. In fact on a few occasions I pretended not to know what Naurto (haven't read it) or Cardcaptor Sakura was, or heaven forbid the plot to InuYasha.
When people enjoy playing certain video games ALL the time or card games like Magic the Gathering or Pokemon (are those still around?) why are they outcasted? Because others don't like those games or know how to play? Some people like to play poker ALL the time but they aren't labeled as geeks (well they are called gamblers, which is worse, which is not the point).
Is manga wrong because it has pictures? Do people think they are a waste of time and money because its a glorified comic book? And whats wrong with comic books? I still like to read fairy Tales but am I too old for them because they are meant for children?
A "normal" Person may be a crazed fan about sports or Shakespeare but thats okay because those are "normal". But manga, anime, pokemon, those are foreign, those are different; and if you like them that makes you different too.
I like being different, but I'm not so sure I'm really ready to tell the theatre world how different.
When people enjoy playing certain video games ALL the time or card games like Magic the Gathering or Pokemon (are those still around?) why are they outcasted? Because others don't like those games or know how to play? Some people like to play poker ALL the time but they aren't labeled as geeks (well they are called gamblers, which is worse, which is not the point).
Is manga wrong because it has pictures? Do people think they are a waste of time and money because its a glorified comic book? And whats wrong with comic books? I still like to read fairy Tales but am I too old for them because they are meant for children?
A "normal" Person may be a crazed fan about sports or Shakespeare but thats okay because those are "normal". But manga, anime, pokemon, those are foreign, those are different; and if you like them that makes you different too.
I like being different, but I'm not so sure I'm really ready to tell the theatre world how different.
People are like dodecahedrons-So many faces
So in my first blog I was all like "Oh I have so much to say" *dramatic pose* But then everything was settled and I didn't feel the need to let off steam. AND I know I claim to love writing but Ive gotten so lazy after coming home from my mission, my own private journal is so behind and I feel so guilty. But I'm justifying my actions by claiming its not hurting anyone...except myself, because I have a horrible memory.
I've been up at University for five months now. And I believe I'm starting to "fit in". When I tell other old friends that its hard for me to make new friends they just laugh because they don't believe me and claim they are the ones that can't make friends easily. Honestly, I think its a problem ALL humans deal with. The thought of going somewhere you're not familiar with then having to socialize with people you've never met-its kinda scary. Because you want to make a good impression and you want to be yourself and yet you don't want to be too much "yourself" because that can scare people (especially if you're like me and you can be really eccentric and random).
And then, the next step is how far do you go in acting like your true self? Once people are used to you, when do you start to show them all your sides? When I first meet someone I only let them see the: perky, ditzy, positive, theatre nerd side. When is it a good time to finally reveal my other sides? Do I dare let people that Ive only known for mere months, know that this "perky" and "ditzy" girl can be sarcastic and cynical? I know I know, there a some people I will never show my cynical-ism to, it would hurt them. But what about the others? Aren't friends supposed to be able to share everything good and bad opinions? It makes me laugh (mentally and sarcastically) when people I barely know in a new town say "If you want to talk, Im here." If I needed to talk to someone about something personnel I have my Mom or a friend Ive had since high school!
On the other hand, I'm a very open. Trying to fit into other people's circle of friends or filling in silences, I'll try to insert my own two bits, be it about families, other friends, and/or my mission. Thats probably why people only think of me as perky and ditzy, because I never share my other emotions. And when I actually do, faces are shocked! Did she actually say that? I can't believe she said that? Is everything okay? Imagine that-I am human, I have more emotions then one, I just dont share it. And that goes back to my original question-When is it the right time to share, to be open, to let my new-ish friends know that theres more to me then I let on.
(Wow that came out all dark, deep, and emo. I dont want to be an emo blogger *cries*
I've been up at University for five months now. And I believe I'm starting to "fit in". When I tell other old friends that its hard for me to make new friends they just laugh because they don't believe me and claim they are the ones that can't make friends easily. Honestly, I think its a problem ALL humans deal with. The thought of going somewhere you're not familiar with then having to socialize with people you've never met-its kinda scary. Because you want to make a good impression and you want to be yourself and yet you don't want to be too much "yourself" because that can scare people (especially if you're like me and you can be really eccentric and random).
And then, the next step is how far do you go in acting like your true self? Once people are used to you, when do you start to show them all your sides? When I first meet someone I only let them see the: perky, ditzy, positive, theatre nerd side. When is it a good time to finally reveal my other sides? Do I dare let people that Ive only known for mere months, know that this "perky" and "ditzy" girl can be sarcastic and cynical? I know I know, there a some people I will never show my cynical-ism to, it would hurt them. But what about the others? Aren't friends supposed to be able to share everything good and bad opinions? It makes me laugh (mentally and sarcastically) when people I barely know in a new town say "If you want to talk, Im here." If I needed to talk to someone about something personnel I have my Mom or a friend Ive had since high school!
On the other hand, I'm a very open. Trying to fit into other people's circle of friends or filling in silences, I'll try to insert my own two bits, be it about families, other friends, and/or my mission. Thats probably why people only think of me as perky and ditzy, because I never share my other emotions. And when I actually do, faces are shocked! Did she actually say that? I can't believe she said that? Is everything okay? Imagine that-I am human, I have more emotions then one, I just dont share it. And that goes back to my original question-When is it the right time to share, to be open, to let my new-ish friends know that theres more to me then I let on.
(Wow that came out all dark, deep, and emo. I dont want to be an emo blogger *cries*
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
A Fascination With Skunks
I've been debating on starting a blog for a looong time now. But then, everyone started a blog and I definitely did not want to jump on the bandwagon. But now, I feel like I have so much to say and opinions to express, that my journal isn't enough. and since I just moved, I don't want to scare my new friends away with my crazy cynical opinions and so on.
So moving on-if you hadn't noticed I am Mormon, a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. It's great, I love it, I believe it and that will never change. What bothers me is the people I get to associate with. Sometimes the things I hear really make my eye twitch, so I'm sure I'll discuss those times here, even if some readers don't understand (if there ever will be readers).
When someone asks "Whats your favorite animal?" I always respond "Skunks!" But they weren't always my favorite animal. For most of my life my response was dogs, in the 6th grade it was gorillas and in the beginning of 8th grade it was frogs. It wasn't until my family moved, during my 8th grade year that I changed it to skunks. My reasons being: I was the new girl, I wanted to be different, and I thought a skunk would be a perfect answer: they are sooo cute, very calm unless provoked (just like me), and misunderstood.
So that kinda explains the name I chose for Bloggers: MormonSkunk. I am strong in my faith, yet my opinions and outlooks on reality are a tad different then most. I am different.
Hmmm, I think that is enough for an intro blog. Im sure I'll update and go into more detail about my life later. some stuff is going on in my life/brain that is driving me crazy!
Ciao!
So moving on-if you hadn't noticed I am Mormon, a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. It's great, I love it, I believe it and that will never change. What bothers me is the people I get to associate with. Sometimes the things I hear really make my eye twitch, so I'm sure I'll discuss those times here, even if some readers don't understand (if there ever will be readers).
When someone asks "Whats your favorite animal?" I always respond "Skunks!" But they weren't always my favorite animal. For most of my life my response was dogs, in the 6th grade it was gorillas and in the beginning of 8th grade it was frogs. It wasn't until my family moved, during my 8th grade year that I changed it to skunks. My reasons being: I was the new girl, I wanted to be different, and I thought a skunk would be a perfect answer: they are sooo cute, very calm unless provoked (just like me), and misunderstood.
So that kinda explains the name I chose for Bloggers: MormonSkunk. I am strong in my faith, yet my opinions and outlooks on reality are a tad different then most. I am different.
Hmmm, I think that is enough for an intro blog. Im sure I'll update and go into more detail about my life later. some stuff is going on in my life/brain that is driving me crazy!
Ciao!
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